Saturday, June 27, 2009

Most Painful...



It has been two years since my Dad wrote me the last time. Until now, I'm still puzzled on how he found out my blog. His reply to an entry about my grandfather is absurd and unbelievable, really caused me pain big time -- as a matter of fact, everytime that I see that email, it still cause me the same pain, sometimes even worst. A while ago, I was browsing my outlook and saw that last email. I read through it and tried to analyse and maybe see where he was coming from. With the way he answered my post, there was so much pain, so much regret, self centeredness, so much arrogance. I don't really understand why he was so mad at me, well in fact I am the one who has all the reasons to be mad. It pains me because the truth is, I love him no matter what he did to my mom and to my sister. I love him despite the fact that he was the reason why I never experienced having a dad- that I will never be complete because he was never in my life. Oh yeah he was, for less than two months in my entire 27 years of existence. He was and he would always be the missing link.


His last line from this email hurts me. It's as if he is wishing that I fail. I never imagined that a father could hurt his daughter this much.

Now that I am married, we will do everything to keep our family together. I wouldn't want my future children feel the same pain. I will make sure that our history will be different. My mom would always say I am still lucky because Jesus became my father since my real dad was away. This is true. God has blessed me with so much, he even gave me a wonderful and caring husband. My new life is just starting and I have forever to compensate all the pain that my dad brought me. I can and I will be happy. My mom is still healthy, living with me, my sister, my hubby and our wonderful dog, beech and I have wonderful, real friends. What more can I ask for?

Monday, May 25, 2009

The Blessings of Being Married


It's been a long time since I logged in and posted an entry to my blog. I've been busy :D.


It has been a month since Robbie and I got married and everything has been totally, happily crazy. Yes, guys, we got married already. :D I am now officially MRS. PATRICIA FRANCISCO CAPULE! :)


April 28 was just a normal day for most of you guys, except for me and Robbie (and for Judy Anne Santos and Ryan Agoncillo, too!)! haha! yes guys, we got married on the same day Judy Anne, the queen of Philipine soap operas (and is a very good actress, by the way) and Ryan Agoncillo, the La Sallista, got married. Juday married a La Sallista, I married a UPian. Where's the connection? there's no connection... haha! just wanted to mention that here since I like Judy Anne.


Anyways, Robbie and I had a civil wedding at Branch 38 of MTC in Quezon City. Every detail of my wedding was simple-- from the ceremonies, down to the reception and to the people who were there with us to celebrate. Like what Ryan Agoncillo said (his reply when he was asked if not being with people they don't want to be there made their day extra special), we were with the special people that we want to be with on this special event and they made our day extra special. Our guests were less than 30, we only have 2 sets of principal sponsors, plus 4 of Robbie's Friends, 7 of my friends and the rest are family and relatives.


Our rings were bought from a local store. Simple but meaningful-- a silver ring with one stone in the middle to signify that we are each other's one and only with our names engraved and the date of our wedding (04.28.2009). I bought a blouse and a new slacks from Moda Plus and Tubby and Robbie bought a new polo from Attitudes (I think our clothes were the most expensive). We had our "pre-nup" glam pic take at Great Image, which by the way is super beautiful. Our reception was held at Kowloon House in West Ave.


Why a simple wedding and why only 30 people?


When I was a kid, I've always dreamt of having a fairy tale-big wedding. I wanted to wear a very nice wedding gown with a long trail. I want to have many flowers and many guests. But as I grew old, my preferences changed. I guess it has something to do with my past relationships. If there is one thing that my past relationships have taught me, I have realised that the details of the wedding is not important-- the important thing about getting married is that YOU ARE MARRYING THE RIGHT PERSON, THE PERSON THAT YOU REALLY, HONESTLY LOVE AND SOMEONE WHO FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT YOU... Somebody who respects you in every situation, even during arguments and fights. Somebody who wants to kiss and hug even though you just woke up. The person who still loves you even if you have the loudest snore. That only person who does chooses not to cheat on you because cheating means losing you-- someone who has the conscience not to hurt you. I found this person-- my beautifully imperfect betterhalf.


I wanted to be with people who are my genuine friends. I've been to a lot of weddings and I often hear people saying bad things about the ceremony, the reception, worst, the couple-- I dont want these kind of people attending my wedding. I want special people to be there, people who really matter to us and to whom we really matter.


I've been single for the past 27 years of my life and Robbie gave me the grandest wedding ever. He made everyone feel his love for me.


After my wedding, I only heard one thing from our guests... that Robbie loves me so much and they felt it. He made a lot of people cry that day, not only me. The love that he has for me was undescribable.


My mom thought I'll never settle down. But I guess, you can never tell.


Like what the commercial said... "SINGLE PATRICIA, SIGNING OUT..."






Friday, April 03, 2009

Everyday is a Blessing

To God Be the Glory!

God has been so kind to me, my family and my friends. Only God knows the difficulties we went through this week and God has taken away all the worries and the problems. For all of the people doubting God, don't allow negativity and problems take away the Faith. It's the only thing that God requires us to have.

Thank you God! Thank you for all the blessings, the love and all the kindness! God is great! :D

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Our Miracle Baby



Just wanna share with you the picture of our miracle baby... This is Christ Angelo.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

A Different Christmas

My Christmases are usually spent with my family-- with my mom's immediate family particularly. I only have wonderful memories... unwrapping gifts, eating wonderful food that my Mamang and Mommie cooked and of course, playing with my cousins. That was how I spent my childhood Christmases.


Till it was my turn to wrap and give gifts to the younger ones, to cook the food for Christmas Eve, to give a little something to Mamang, to my wonderful aunts and cousins. All of my Christmases were spent with so much joy. Every year, I look forward to the funny gifts that my sister would give my Tita Jing and my cousin Mark. Unwrapping those gifts were the highlight of the Noche Buena.

This year it was different... really different. Until now as I write this entry, I still cannot believe my family went through this ordeal. We almost lost Bamba.

Bham is the youngest cousin of our "batch". I was born on 1981. Abbey, my sister was born on 1982. Mark or Mackey as we fondly call him, and the only guy cousin, was born on 1986 and Bham, our baby cousin was born on 1987. We were "batch mates". Born in the same decade, we grew up together. Yes, we may have other cousins, but the four of us are inseparable. We were like siblings born from different mothers. We shared a lot of happy memories, childish fights but we were always there for each other. My sister and Mackey were partners in crime while Bham and I were always the victims of their pranks. Although we didn't live in the same house, we were together everyday.

Christmas was and still is, the most exciting day of the year not only for the four of us, but also for the entire family. Last December 24, I attended the Christmas Eve Mass with Mark, Majen and Selene. As usual, the mass ended at 11 pm and we all went home to Mamang's house. Noche Buena this year was one of the best. For one, we were complete. We didn't have that much food but it was enough for everyone. Until it was time to unwrapped the gifts. My sister's gifts were crazy... she gave my tita jing jumping "testicles" and mark jumping "boobies". We were all laughing because of the gifts. We were so happy that night. We went home at around 2 am to sleep and rest since Christmas Day is a day of videoke.

Until Christmas morning came. I was wrapping Robbie's gift since I bought his last. My tita Susan was rushing to our house to tell us that my cousin Bamba is in pain because of her menstruation. She was bleeding. I was so calm and told her that it is usual for someone who didn't have her period for a long time to feel pain when her menstruation finally comes. I even gave her the hot bag so that my cousin could apply hot compress on her abdomen. Then my best friend Louella came to visit with my Godson Johann. My tita Susan came back, now more tensed and scared, she shouted, "Ten, may bata sa toilet!" I was shocked and at the same time cannot believe what I just heard. I dragged my best friend to come with me and check out what's happening. When I arrived, I immediately went to the bathroom to check on Bamba. She was still partially sitting on the toilet. I saw something... I looked again, I can't believe I'm seeing a baby's arm! That was the only time that I realized that Bam was actually pregnant and not just fat. I was shocked... and traumatized. I wanted to cry, wanted to run away. I can't believe and I've never imagined I'll see these things. I told Louella to get the baby while I get help. Everyone was crying, even my Tito Ruben. They were all shocked. I told myself that I have to be calm... but I was scared.

I went back home and told my mom about it. My mom dressed up immediately. I went to the neighbor to ask for help. Ate Teng and Kuya Chito were there. They went to their house to get their car. We took Bamba to UERM on Kuya Chito's car. While we were on our way, Bam was telling us that she's getting weaker. Mommie was holding baby Angelo and was seated in the front seat. Lala and I told Bam not to sleep. We arrived in the hospital 10 minutes later. We found out that baby Angelo had a slight head trauma and needs to be suctioned. Bam was still in pain. The doctors attended to her and were advised that she has to be stitched since there was a laceration.

Baby Angelo was born between 12 and 12:30 on December 25. Yep, he's a Christmas Baby and a miracle baby for that matter. Bham carried him for 9 months alone. Nobody knew that she was pregnant and according to her, she found out that she was pregnant around August this year. She was too scared to tell the family or anybody. She carried him alone until the last minute that he was born. The doctors were scolding and blaming Bham for what happened since it could have killed her or the baby. But the fact still remains: my cousin carried him alone, surviving all the physical, emotional and mental torture and pain pregnancy had brought her. As I look back, I never saw Bam sad, depressed or in pain. She was always happy, always laughing, smiling and eating. She never saw her situation as a disadvantage. For the longest time, since I was the eldest among the cousins, they always idolize me. But this time, I idolize her more. She was tough and ready despite the fact that she's child-like and immature sometimes. She earned my respect and I love her more.

Yes baby Angelo was born in a toilet. We almost lost him. But I guess God has his purpose... he lived. We named him Christ Angelo. He is my family's savior. He's a miracle. When he came out of Bham's womb and my uncle carried him out of the toilet, his umbilical chord was already cut. Nobody believed but we never touched him or did anything to him. Her delivery was a miracle.

While the doctors were attending to Angelo and Bham, my sister, Louella, Princess and I rushed to SM Centrepoint, the nearest mall, to buy baby stuffs. My sister, who is usually "kuripot" gave P1000 without hesitation. Then my mamang who is usually tensed never said any negative thing about the incident.

This incident changed our family's priorities. Suddenly, we have plans... a baptismal to save up for, a baby to take care and be proud of... a baby to buy stuffs for. This is a good thing. It felt like our lives made a big turn, a journey that we are all excited to take. I just pray his Newborn screening turns out to be ok. I thank God for giving us this miracle. This indeed changed our lives. We are all living testimonies to God's miracle.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Book Giveaway Carnival



I discovered this wonderful site for book lovers. The Bookroomreviews is a website where you can find new books and win stuffs as well.



Since they have this Book Giveaway Carnival, I would love to giveaway e-books of "Twilight" and "New Moon". I am not able to giveaway or send books just yet since this is the first time I am joining but I am sure I'll be able to do so next time.

To join, just post a comment on this entry and lemme know why you wanna win the e-book. I'll be sending the e-books to 2 lucky winners. Please do not forget to include your name and email address.

The Twilight Series have been so famous here in our country and I can't wait to watch the movie!
Although I am giving away the e-books, I am still encouraging to buy the real books. Nothing beats the "real" books. I mean, if you really are a book lover, you will never hesitate to buy the book, right? :D




Sunday, August 31, 2008

Ely Buendia Had Another Attack, Concert Cut Short

Robbie attended the Reunion Concert of the famous Eraserheads with his friends. At around 1 am, he texted me that the concert was cut short because Ely had another attack. He was rushed to Makati Medical Centre.

According to the news, after the first set, Ely had another attack due to physical and emotional stress. He's now confined at the Philippine Heart Centre.

Robbie and his friends went to a bar in Makati since it was too early to go home and they found Raymond Marasigan and other bands jamming in that bar. (forgot to ask the name of the bar).

The New Twilighter

Its been a while since I posted on my blog. I've been very, very busy with work and school and didn't have time to even browse my own site. How's everyone? :)

It's a Sunday and I'm logged in to the net. I was monitoring my bids on E-Bay. Thanks to my friend and Team Leader Claire Arrabe for influencing me on reading the "Twilight" Saga. I've been dying to buy the 4 books. Unfornately, no bookstores in Manila is selling the paperback version. Can't afford to buy the hardbound version so I opted to find copies in E-Bay. Luckily, I found and won the 4 books :) I am soooo happy! I got "Twilight" and "Eclipse" and I am yet to receive the 2 other books. Already started to read the first one...

Anyway, I went out with my friends yesterday. Its been a long time since I went on a night out to drink. Robbie went to the Eraserheads Reunion Concert. We have tickets for Metro Bar however, the show last night was a ticket selling show so we can't use our free tickets. Not wanting to spoil our night, we went Libis from West Ave to drink and dine in Somethin Fishy.

At around 1 am, Robbie texted me and told me that the Eraserheads Concert was cut short because Ely Buendia had another heart attack. I hope he's ok...

Monday, July 21, 2008

Something that I learned...

Hell will break loose but REAL FRIENDS will always be there...

First Day at work... a lot of great things happened. Underwent a very tough knee operation and had the time to rest and learn things. After a long vacation, my first day at work is truly amazing. I was given a chance by somebody extraordinary to prove that I can do great things not only for myself but for everyone as well. To you who fought and believed in me, Thank You. You deserve where you are right now and may God give you the graces that you ask for.

What I wrote above is something that I realised during these times. You know who you guys are. Thank you...

Monday, July 07, 2008

I'm Back...

Finally, after more than 2 weeks of not being able to walk, I was able to convince Robbie to take me out so that I could check my blog. How's everyone? I hope all of you are in good health.

Yep, yep, yep! I am grateful to God because my knee operation was successful! Although I can still barely walk, I went to the farthest place I could go to-- the Internet cafe... I still have my crutches though and Robbie had to bring a make-shift foot stool.

The operation was really one of the most difficult things I had to undergo. I'll probably write about it when I get back to the office.

I would also want to give my love and thanks to LJ for taking the time to fetch me at my house and to accompany me to the hospital. Thanks Girl! I owe you one.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of you, my friends, who prayed for the success of my operation. Thank you Boss Mitch for giving me the prayer to St. Josemari Escriva. It really is a powerful prayer! For the people who visited me in the hospital: My dearest lolo, my supervisor Claire and teammates Kimmy and Mommie Irene; my co-officers at CHEM (Kuya Emil, Mark, John, Suzette, Princess, Lesel, Heidee); my bestfriends from school, Ate Cath, Ate Robby and Ate Carlyne. For the others who were not able to visit but continuously prayed for me, thank you, thank you, thank you!

To my family, my mamang baby, my Mom, my sister and my Robbie, I love you and thank you for standing by me and for being patient with me despite my tantrums when I'm in pain. You are truly God's biggest blessing!

And to my doctors, Dr. Beng Javier and Dr. Thet Torres thank you, thank you, thank you! Dr. Javier is the best ortho surgeon. If you need to see an ortho, he's one of the best.

Anyway, I'll be back, hopefully, in the office by the 14th of July. See ya'll when I get back ;-)